Everything will change. A Ministry of WorldVenture.
So yes, I've already told you all that I'd like to stay in Cote d'Ivoire a second year. But where am I at exactly? Well here ya' go.
This is the last month that I'll be living with my family here in Korhogo. My first year will be finished so it would be the natural time to move out. From there I'll be moving to Bouaké, back to the campus I lived on my first few months here. So I'll get started on preparing for the new Journey Corps team coming in September and the medical university students.
How do I feel about this move though? Well I don't know actually. I don't want to leave my family and friends in Korhogo. That's where my life is, I don't want to start over in Bouaké! But it doesn't look like that's where God's plan is for me right now. Korhogo is where I'm more comfortable and comfort is not a reason to stay somewhere. The question to answer is: Where will I serve God more effectively? Right now, the answer to that question is Bouaké.
However I will admit that I am nervous about moving away in beginning of August and then not receiving any more support and having to leave the beginning of September. I was really worried that I'll regret not spending my last month in Korhogo. But I'm giving that worry to God. He has this entire situation engineered out perfectly.
As far as support raising goes, for the moment, it looks like I have enough to stay one extra month, until beginning of September. Support was coming in pretty fast at first but has seemed to come to a very slow trickle. I've been having a hard time discerning whether I need to be trusting and stick it out to the very last moment or if I need to recognize when a door is being closed. It wasn't until this morning that I came to a conclusion about that.
The reason I've been watching that door so closely is because I'm so concerned about preparing myself to leave. But he knows exactly how much preparation I need, better than I do, and will make it clear. I keep wanting to take the whole situation into my own hands, but that's just so not going to work. So I'm asking and trusting God to provide this support for me and going to be ready to stay here until the moment that door is slammed in my face, instead of calling it quits when it's ajar. If God does bring me back to the States sooner than I was hoping, that's totally fine and when the time comes he will reveal to me that that is the case.
So there it is. This entire thing in my head wasn't this calm, concise summary of my thoughts and circumstances just a few days ago. It felt like a tornado going on in my head and completely drained my energy. If you only could have seen the fit I threw about it just the other day! But after staying at the Boese's for a few days in Ferké where I've had the time to really sit down, think, and pray about it, I'm feeling much better!